today

I've had a slight headache today. That's unusual for me. 

I went to the funeral of Grandma Liem today. Also unusual. 

It wasn't called a funeral; it was a "celebration of life." And it was. There was as much laughter as there were tears. 

She wasn't my biological grandmother; she was my mom's godmother. An all-around great person. I probably wouldn't be here without her, since she had a hand in my parents getting together. 

Later in the evening, Barbara, Ender, and I went to see Good Luck, Have Fun, Don't Die. It was wild. 

Sometimes I feel like I know exactly what I'm doing, and sometimes I feel like I have no idea. 

 Usually multiple times, throughout the span of a single day. 

Today is a beautiful day. 

Feb 9th

It's not yet midnight yet; that means there's time to write. 

Because it's not the future yet. Still plenty of time to capture the moment. 

Sweep away the half-muttered curses that have gathered in the corners. 

Whatever hurt me is probably still out there but it isn't here now. 

Check the cobwebs for answers. 

This sounds morose but I'm going for contemplative. I'm just so used to seeing beauty in all things ya know? 

The Three C's is something I've been thinking about. I forget where I heard this...

Create. Create something every day. 

Community? Do something with other people. Maybe it was Connect. That sounds right. Talk to people. Go see 'em and stuff. Leaving the house can be annoying because you have to put on pants but you can also get to put on fun socks. 

Cherish. I think it meant to appreciate any dang old thing that is pretty cool but maybe we take for granted. Like a cookie.

Cookie also starts with "c". 

I've been dreaming so much lately. And I already dream a lot. I wake up and feel like I've lived a dozen lives.

It's interesting. Kind of feels like cheating. Most people only get one life, and here I am with more than I know what to do with. 

It does feel like it gets lost when I wake up. Lessons are learned, but most slip away by the time I've brushed my teeth. 

I'll keep practicing.