Ah yes, the journal. The voice of the past and present, to myself in the future. 

I blame smart phones for all my problems. They're incredible machines. And yet, I lived so much more when it was much easier to get bored. 

I do wonder how my brain has changed. When i got my ADHD diagnosis years ago, I thought, "That makes sense" and took my medication and went about my business. 

It was only recently, when trying to help my friend understand their own ADHD diagnosis, that I started listening to lectures on YouTube about the emotional response many people, especially adults, have when they get their diagnosis. 

It's like you've been racing in a rowboat your whole life and never winning, then you find out that everyone else had a motor in theirs. 

I didn't exactly feel that way. At least I don't think I did.

But I say... That I have to go buy some Christmas presents and it's not something I want to do but my headlight is out so it's better to go during the day. Also I need to order a new headlight. And learn how to replace it. Are halogen lights good? I kind of hate them but if they help me see that would be good even though I would know it annoys other people like me. 

Decision time. 

Decorative piano music drifts through the cool air of the Thai food restaurant. I'm picking up some food on my way home from work. I wonder if the music is deliberately bland to defy stereotype. It may be working; as I don't know what Thai music normally sounds like. Music is complicated anyway. I remember my parents listening to Spanish-language music on the radio and whenever a song came on that I found myself kind of enjoying, they would change the station. 

This restaurant has been here a while, in the strip mall anchored by a Fry's Food and Drug. 

I suppose this "plaza" as it's labeled has been a big part of my life. There was a Mom and Pop video rental store, literally called Mom and Pop's. A Blockbuster Video moved in, and then Pop died. The Blockbuster Video is now an urgent care. And the great croissant of life rolls on. 

My food is almost ready. 

My heel is still injured. Still not a good idea to attack me, because I haven't lost any mobility. It just hurts to do certain movements. Like my patented softshoe, as well as my legendary samba. But I can still do them as well as before. 

The plan today: Eat this Thai food, lift weights, play a little bit of PlayStation, and then go to bed at a decent hour. 

The 40 Year Old Vegan?

I made the mistake of watching a bunch of YouTube videos of dogs and cows that are best friends. Now I feel kinda bad about eating cows. David Attenborough also says I can help biodiversity by eating less meat. Dang it. But it's so delicious.

My foot is injured and I can't treadmill walk right now. That's also had some influence on my thinking. I am rapidly gaining back the weight I've managed to lose over the past 4 years and while I refuse to limit my portions, perhaps gorging myself on plant products will help.

I should probably see a doctor about this foot and see if there's anything they can inject me with to speed up the process. Yeah, better living through chemistry. 

I have a week of vacation coming up. Pretty exciting. Maybe I'll do some spring cleaning and get rid of a bunch of stuff that I haven't used in years.

My foot hurts. A lot. Finally, an excuse to use a cane!

Here I go for four whole minutes! What the heck have I been doing? I don't know!

Friends are coming into town so I'm excited about that. Bun-Bun seems happy and healthy on her treatment, so hooray!

I'v been playing Elden Ring, which I am enjoying. I was on the fence for a while. It's bizarre enough to satisfy my Eldritch horror itch.

Not much else really. My heel hurts a lot more than usual from walking. Might have to start icing it. 

To the Icery!

 Bun-Bun is home and feeling good! She's got Addison's Disease, so we are very relieved. Pretty easy to treat...not the cheapest, but she's worth it. 

I've been letting her sleep on the bed. 

Bun-Bun isn't feeling well. She's at the vet getting IV fluids right now. Looks like renal problems. I like this vet. They are going to do some blood work and see if her levels stabilize. I feel like she's in good hands right now. 

I hope to know more soon.